English lessons are kinda fun, to me at least.
It is better than previous lessons as it is more thought-provoking and engaging now. Critical thinking skills are muchly needed as thinking is done almost anytime. Besides that, the lessons are fast paced packed with loads of information and points to note. The information given are usually important as said by the teacher himself, so I am proud to say that I have rekindle my passion to study English again, at least to pass the subject first; that is of the utmost priority. I do not sleep in English lessons anymore as I find it hard to doze off under his loud and engaging voice.
Campcraft competition was held last Saturday. I think the team did quite well. However, there is much room for improvement as one mistake was spotted and I'm afraid that only would kill the team's hopes of getting a top10 finish. As the other units are also strong in a way or another, competition is gonna to be stiff and fierce, as we shall await the results to be revealed on a much later date. No doubt, I personally felt that it would be great if we can pitch for a second time. It is everyone's dream to bring glory to the unit and emulate what the past batch has done. We had put in a lot of effort prior to the competition and we do hope we will get to reap the rewards.
Nevertheless, even we do not go into the finals, I think we should be quite proud with ourselves as we did not screw up too much and we managed to complete all three components. To be able to compete in the competition and complete the components is already an achievement to me, but to be able to get into a top10 finish is a veryvery big bonus.
Hence, I hope for the best for the team. I really wonder how am I gonna spend my Mondays and Thusdays without the usual trainings.
Monday, February 25, 2008
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Monday, February 18, 2008
dad hospitalised.
I got the news that my dad was hospitalised yesterday.
I was worried but my mother assured me its nothing serious. As expected, its wasn't something serious but rather an inflamation somewhere in the liver or stomach. I was relieved to hear that from my mother as my father, even though he was always busy with his work, was a key figure in my life till now and always. Due to work, he must devote more time to work in order to let the family to live a more happy life.
From what I know and see, my father is quite of a drinker and smoker. Since I was a kid and did not know anything, he smoked almost every day. There was once when I asked him why did he smoke, he told me not to smoke in the future. That was all I need to know about smoking.
Besides that, he drinks alcohol/beer almost once a week. Since his work became more successful, he has been reaping the rewards that he had worked hard for. But that wasn't the correct way to spend money, I know. Every week, he will go out with his friends to drink. My family sure was worried about his health. Drinking and smoking won't do good for your health, that is for sure.
Luckily, its nothing serious and I do hope it would be a good lesson learnt for my father as he isn't young anymore and to me, his health and well-bring is the utmost importance.
I was worried but my mother assured me its nothing serious. As expected, its wasn't something serious but rather an inflamation somewhere in the liver or stomach. I was relieved to hear that from my mother as my father, even though he was always busy with his work, was a key figure in my life till now and always. Due to work, he must devote more time to work in order to let the family to live a more happy life.
From what I know and see, my father is quite of a drinker and smoker. Since I was a kid and did not know anything, he smoked almost every day. There was once when I asked him why did he smoke, he told me not to smoke in the future. That was all I need to know about smoking.
Besides that, he drinks alcohol/beer almost once a week. Since his work became more successful, he has been reaping the rewards that he had worked hard for. But that wasn't the correct way to spend money, I know. Every week, he will go out with his friends to drink. My family sure was worried about his health. Drinking and smoking won't do good for your health, that is for sure.
Luckily, its nothing serious and I do hope it would be a good lesson learnt for my father as he isn't young anymore and to me, his health and well-bring is the utmost importance.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
downandout.
You have just fallen from the tenth floor to the ground fall. It hurts so much you can't even regconize yourself, can't even feel anything anymore. You have just failed. Sounds so direct but yet so indirect.
Direct in the sense that, fact is, you failed. Indirect as in the way people react after hearing your failure and their own results. You hear insensitive comments ringing beside your ear. You hear sarcastic comments echoing from the back of your mind. You clench your fist and try to get away with a smile, a fake smile. It helps to disguise your emotions and feelings to get away with it, to let them leave you alone, to deceive and coax yourself that's its alright. You see people's jubilant faces, cheering, having every damn right to savour every moment of it. You're just trying to hide your disappointment.
Life is unfair.
And nobody cares whether you can spin a pen, play a guitar or play soccer. But somebody do care when you fail to achieve something, so that you can be the laughing stock, the clown, the loser. Its embarrassing and shameful, but what to do? Nobody cares about a failure.
Instead of supposed words of encouragement, you get shit and crap comments like "Did you work hard?" or "Try harder next time". Does it help? I'm afraid it is a "no". People usually care for the better ones, as they have more potential than others. They'll fret when the better ones flop. They will think and assume that you lack practice and teach you something new, new and day by day they will forget about your problem. Once you get kicked in the back and whacked so hard, you'll be condemned and chances are, that trying to stand up from that horrible experience is going to take time and courage.
Your parents, bound to suffer too. Imagine people's mum compare results and found out your son did badly for something. Imagine the kind of feeling your parents are subjected to. So disgraceful, yet impossible to escape from. What done is done. And your pride is broken so much, that it acts like a wound, hidden so deep below the skin that will never show, and hurts like hell when you commit the same mistake again.
To fail the second time, I'm so damn sure it tastes bitter. And yes, I'm jealous of others. To fail by such a fucking small margin is just like rubbing salt on your wound.
I had enough. I'm quiting my pitiful life of trying to be nice, trying to be the one who is willing to listen to every damn comment you make. Its about time to take off that mask and get myself a new life. For the better, perhaps.
I do hope it was a dream.
Direct in the sense that, fact is, you failed. Indirect as in the way people react after hearing your failure and their own results. You hear insensitive comments ringing beside your ear. You hear sarcastic comments echoing from the back of your mind. You clench your fist and try to get away with a smile, a fake smile. It helps to disguise your emotions and feelings to get away with it, to let them leave you alone, to deceive and coax yourself that's its alright. You see people's jubilant faces, cheering, having every damn right to savour every moment of it. You're just trying to hide your disappointment.
Life is unfair.
And nobody cares whether you can spin a pen, play a guitar or play soccer. But somebody do care when you fail to achieve something, so that you can be the laughing stock, the clown, the loser. Its embarrassing and shameful, but what to do? Nobody cares about a failure.
Instead of supposed words of encouragement, you get shit and crap comments like "Did you work hard?" or "Try harder next time". Does it help? I'm afraid it is a "no". People usually care for the better ones, as they have more potential than others. They'll fret when the better ones flop. They will think and assume that you lack practice and teach you something new, new and day by day they will forget about your problem. Once you get kicked in the back and whacked so hard, you'll be condemned and chances are, that trying to stand up from that horrible experience is going to take time and courage.
Your parents, bound to suffer too. Imagine people's mum compare results and found out your son did badly for something. Imagine the kind of feeling your parents are subjected to. So disgraceful, yet impossible to escape from. What done is done. And your pride is broken so much, that it acts like a wound, hidden so deep below the skin that will never show, and hurts like hell when you commit the same mistake again.
To fail the second time, I'm so damn sure it tastes bitter. And yes, I'm jealous of others. To fail by such a fucking small margin is just like rubbing salt on your wound.
I had enough. I'm quiting my pitiful life of trying to be nice, trying to be the one who is willing to listen to every damn comment you make. Its about time to take off that mask and get myself a new life. For the better, perhaps.
I do hope it was a dream.
Saturday, February 09, 2008
lunar new year
Time flies. Tomorrow is the last day for the four days break for chinese new year.
First day of lunar new year was basically spending time with my family. I've finally managed to complete Final Fantasy X, after much hesitation. The ending was, sad, but I had expected it. Now, I'm trying to get my hands on FFX-2 and try to get them back together :).
I also got the OST for Final Fantasy X too. Besides that, the whole family had dinner together. It wasn't easy to get everyone on the same table. Dad was always busy working, while I'm mostly away from home. That kind of feeling sucks. Hopefully, its just a dream and someday it will end and I will finally get back home instead of being there alone.
Second day of lunar new year. We went back to Muar, my father's hometown. It is in Johor for your information, and near Melaka. We visited my aunt, uncle and my aunt ( mother side). My father's sister, or rather my aunt, and her husband are very nice people. They are kind and somemore they treated us to my favourite and I believe my family's favourite dish, ikan asam pedas. It is a delicious and tasty dish. You gotta try it yourself to know that kind of feeling. We went my uncle's house. My cousin has a lot of cats in the house. We chatted for some time before we set off.
No doubt, I'd received redpackets, but that's not the point. To me, the amount doesn't matter, well I used to think it is very important, but as time passed, I think its the kind of feeling when brothers and sisters get together,people getting together, the moment of rejoice and joy of getting getting to see your loved ones that matters, and that makes it more tresurable.
First day of lunar new year was basically spending time with my family. I've finally managed to complete Final Fantasy X, after much hesitation. The ending was, sad, but I had expected it. Now, I'm trying to get my hands on FFX-2 and try to get them back together :).
I also got the OST for Final Fantasy X too. Besides that, the whole family had dinner together. It wasn't easy to get everyone on the same table. Dad was always busy working, while I'm mostly away from home. That kind of feeling sucks. Hopefully, its just a dream and someday it will end and I will finally get back home instead of being there alone.
Second day of lunar new year. We went back to Muar, my father's hometown. It is in Johor for your information, and near Melaka. We visited my aunt, uncle and my aunt ( mother side). My father's sister, or rather my aunt, and her husband are very nice people. They are kind and somemore they treated us to my favourite and I believe my family's favourite dish, ikan asam pedas. It is a delicious and tasty dish. You gotta try it yourself to know that kind of feeling. We went my uncle's house. My cousin has a lot of cats in the house. We chatted for some time before we set off.
No doubt, I'd received redpackets, but that's not the point. To me, the amount doesn't matter, well I used to think it is very important, but as time passed, I think its the kind of feeling when brothers and sisters get together,people getting together, the moment of rejoice and joy of getting getting to see your loved ones that matters, and that makes it more tresurable.
Tuesday, February 05, 2008
aftermaths
Exams are finally over. I must say I slugged it through and got back pretty disappointing scores. This maybe term1 but its screwed totally. Feeling so low right now.
Anyways, celebrated my brithday in edison's chalet. 0302 was quite of a fun day. The day started off with midnight barbeque, where we ate all the stingrays, maybe not all but most of it. So delicious, too bad some of them missed it haha. Nevertheless, gotta thank edison for making this whole chalet possible by inviting us and paying for more than what we usually expect. Too bad the cake's a waste. $80++ cake and we never finished it. Imagine the kids who are starving, craving for food, eating anything they deem as edible.
Come to think of it, I guess we're too blessed. Played arcade and lan after that, burned a hole in my wallet, leaving me totally broke.
Pleased to say that the campcraft comp team can finally meet the 10minute mark. To me, it is quite of an achievement. To the team, I think it is quite a moral booster to everyone. With the prelims postponed, we have more time to improve on our timings and the standard of the products. It is no child's play but we will try hard.
NPAP training, I'm looking forward to it. Flag bearer drills are unique and definitely an interesting new experience. It is quite fun, to be able to do those drills and learn something new instead of the usual foot drills or baton/rifle drills.
Tomorrow is CNY celebration. I wished I do not have to go for it but nah...we'll see about it.
Anyways, celebrated my brithday in edison's chalet. 0302 was quite of a fun day. The day started off with midnight barbeque, where we ate all the stingrays, maybe not all but most of it. So delicious, too bad some of them missed it haha. Nevertheless, gotta thank edison for making this whole chalet possible by inviting us and paying for more than what we usually expect. Too bad the cake's a waste. $80++ cake and we never finished it. Imagine the kids who are starving, craving for food, eating anything they deem as edible.
Come to think of it, I guess we're too blessed. Played arcade and lan after that, burned a hole in my wallet, leaving me totally broke.
Pleased to say that the campcraft comp team can finally meet the 10minute mark. To me, it is quite of an achievement. To the team, I think it is quite a moral booster to everyone. With the prelims postponed, we have more time to improve on our timings and the standard of the products. It is no child's play but we will try hard.
NPAP training, I'm looking forward to it. Flag bearer drills are unique and definitely an interesting new experience. It is quite fun, to be able to do those drills and learn something new instead of the usual foot drills or baton/rifle drills.
Tomorrow is CNY celebration. I wished I do not have to go for it but nah...we'll see about it.
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