avoid;

He knew it was coming.
He knew it was comng before he knew it as if something had told him about it.
He knew it was coming all along.

It was an eventuality which happened eventually.

He saw the light, engulfing all the darkness.
He heard his voice speaking to him.
He had vision of a near distant future.
But he didn't listen to himself, he didn't trust his illusion either.

He saw the light fading out,
he reached out for it,
and with the familiarity of achieving nothing,
he grabbed nothing.
again.

***
blahblahblah...

understand;

so why bother?

i leave myself confused and often pondering... which is totally pointless.

let it be let it be. the knot might untie by itself.



putting on a false front :)

7. We're gonna be fine

there's no passenger, there's no driver, it's all uncharted.

:(

If I sit back and do nothing, nothing will ever happen in my life.
- Beck.

brainstorming

...
...
...

ahhh so many things are going to happen over the course of this two weeks. I wonder why I haven't signed up for my UKCAT. And I'm pretty doubtful whether I still want to do dentistry or not... Heck yes of course I want to, but am I eligible for it? That is the perennial question I always ask myself. I have yet to do attachments and personal statement and my grades are a mess... And I have no clue when applications for Australia starts, I guess it is about a good time to ask my friend who is going Imperial to do medicine or prof.kar.

SIGH.

And then there's training later at 3, and then on wed and then on friday too. At this rate, fatigue will never go away and always be so burnt out. I am in no mood to write in proper prose and even if I wanted to, I suspect my ability to do so and this spells disaster for my GP especially when expectations are so high damn it.

This reminds me of: time to restart my skydrive account, might as well let ff4 remember the password for me but that depends whether I can remember the password first or not... crap...
and then form a b and c for testimonial which should be fairly empty due to my lackadaisical attitude for a good year and a half...
and then issues and ideas and the non-fiction book that I'm supposed to read...
and all the revision which I should have completed but yet not started at all...

I hate deadlines, whether self-imposed or imposed by others zzz...

Father's Day is coming up soon too, time to prepare a menu for my family lol!
***

'My parents danced together, her head on his chest. Both had their eyes closed. They seemed so perfectly content. If you can find someone like that, someone who you can hold and close your eyes to the world with, then you're lucky. Even if it lasts for a minute or a day.'
The Name of the Wind, Patrick Rothfuss.

today is a day that i dont want to remember;

for various reasons.

not much of a happy day... the clock is ticking.

T.D.D.U.A

special day special day.

thank you.

46

;)

incoherent

i bleed it out

cuts on the knees and elbow



or the lack thereof.

in a funk.