Monday, March 30, 2009

Excuse?

I am bogged down by work. My grades are failing. I overslept. I need to focus on my studies therefore it is absolutely fine to skip the training.

The above mentioned are excuses. Palpable excuses. Excuses are a subset of reason, backed by the hope of getting forgiven or excused. In this context, an excuse is an explanation offered to justify an absence or failure in executing something. All excuses are logical, either they try to shirk the responsibility or play the blame game.

"I think I should have done it, but I did something else. So I give an excuse to make myself forgivable and innocent." Well, it is clearly evident I am trying to convince myself and not make myself look guilty. Blaming something abstract even though it is undeniably your own failure to do so is also an act of excuse, due to your act of hubris. This will lead to your downfall eventually.

We have heard of countless cliche excuses like the sudden loss of memory: forgotten, the can't be bothered attitude: don't know, or the universally unacceptable reason: no time. They are unconvincing, albeit they might have some sense in it, and totally unable to justify and validate your own failure. You have to be reliable consistently to pass off an excuse as a reason. Even so, it is contrived and takes a lot of trust from your audience to trust you. If you are late, shows an ignorant attitude or simply cannot be bothered at all, do not waste your time in weaving another fictional story.

There is nothing wrong with giving excuses. As long as it is not given every week in, week out, which makes your absence or failure to look so scripted.
Nothing is wrong with excuses, but using it to escape from failure is a bigbig delusional mistake that everyone should not commit.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

A recent lack of topics and motivation to blog about.

So.
Do you still think we were the ones who were wrong, or wronged? After disastrous decisions made by the supposed experienced leaders.
Don't you think that the lectures, sermons, scoldings had always been one-sided? Because we were not entirely at fault at all.
Would things still fall apart had it been different all along initially? Your tardy encouragement came really late.
Wouldn't matters be easier and simpler if we had trashed things out and establish a common footing right at the beginning? For everyone to recover from their whinings and steady themselves, they need time and reality.

So.
You assumed that things will work out.
Eventually it did.
For all the wrong reasons.
You are pricky.
Like trying to find the key in the haystack.
Can you find it at all?
There wasn't any proper dissemination of information.
Till now.
You are picky.
For our own good?
You are blind.
Keep guessing.

Sunday, March 22, 2009

All in all, it went well enough (:

And shoutout to chekwei and wesley for turning up!

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

My eyesight is failing, or is fatigue getting the better of me?

The friends I gained and the friends I lost. The tardy apologies, half hearted or not. The walls that I built around myself. The true defination of friendship. Diluted, soulless, false pretence. Maybe I'm just weary. Or should I put on a facade? To survive yet another day.

I think I deserve a break. However, there are activities on Friday and Saturday. Why must I always give in and commit myself to the things I detest?
I still think they were elated yesterday. Trapped in contagious euphoria, oblivious to my departure.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

A quick note to myself before I start to go on a mad rampage:

1. Clear my study table.
2. Tidy up my wardrobe.
3. Get enough sleep.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

I just came back from the IT Show in Suntec.
Hell of a crowd. My cousin and I had to really push and squeeze our way through to walk to other booths. So much for breezing through the wide walkways. The deals were...except for the Razer deal which I managed to get. The rest were pretty average deals. Some were even more expensive than in Sim Lim Square :S

The LOL part of the day is...someone bought a Razer Salmosa(bigger edition) and a Razer Goliathus Omega for $(59+25) whereas I got the exact Razer Salmosa and a Razer Mantis for $59. I sympathise that poor fellow... Imagine yourself pushing and shoving just to get to the booth, and get scammed. =/

My cousin got a Western Digital external HDD. I must say it looks attractive, even better than my Seagate. Not forgetting to mention, its cheaper. And bundled with a free pouch. I missed out on mine last year. Darn.

Geeks don't mind to spend on their prized and coveted targets, notwithstanding the economic recession or job cuts. But I really detest the people who block up the walkways and buy nothing in the end.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Fiesta

피에스타Fiesta - Clazziquai


Sighs. Life seems bleak. But such songs will never fail to cheer me up.

I still cannot believe there are lessons on the March holiday break. Pfft. I feel so burnt out now. And chances are I won't be able to concentrate during the lessons. And this results in a waste of my time. And the teachers'. And also, less sleep time. Tsktsk, I'll get my sleep no matter what, during lessons or on the bus/mrt.


When was the last time you felt alive?
Mine was...4 years ago.

Monday, March 09, 2009

Can't you feel?
The growing animosity between you and I?
The impulse to shout and swear at each other when you and I see each other?
The lesser chances we get to meet each other?

You gain some friends, you lose some.
Is this the price to pay?
I guess three years aren't too long. It was ended by one sentence. Or maybe one conversation. It is not strong enough to withstand. It was not meant to last. I was the tyrant. You were the silent innocent victim of my tyranny. I was oblivious, pelting you, without caring about you.
You can choose your friends. I can choose the path I want to take. Our paths split.
I believe you are in good company. As long as you are not with me.


Our paths split.
You gain some friends, you lose some.

asda.

Wednesday, March 04, 2009


Love Mode Featuring VERBAL(m-flo) - Clazziquai Project
I'm not forcing you to listen to this song, so it is not autoplayed (:
Just click on 'play' with an open mind.

The simple pleasures in life. Beautiful songs. Friends to hang out with. Especially the friends that once had conflicts with you. I am so lucky and fortunate to get them back. I sincerely apologise for whatever fucker stuff I did. Sorry. And thank you for accepting me again.

Monday, March 02, 2009

In our mindless and endless pursuit of fame, success and wealth, somewhere along the way, we will lose our mind and start to screw up our inter personal relationships. Whether our family or friends, we will feel weary and lethargic. A harmless and innocuous conversation will turn into a confrontation, random yet heated. It is hard to avoid, but we will always take everything for granted. And neglect and ignore the feelings of our friends, our family.

A friend may not tell you openly that you have a problem.
A friend may just allow you to get even more atrocious, to be consumed by your own vacuous obsession.
A good friend will break the news to you; the truth may sound cruel.
A good friend will always be there for you; you should not be selfish, spread the love.
Let's not laugh at others' misfortunes. Unless that unlucky guy is a total douchebag.

It takes more than caring
To be a real friend;
The nature of friendship;
Requires a blend
Of warmest compassion
And love deep and true
To reach and to comfort
The way that you do.
Because I can see
That your kind of friendship
Is priceless to me.

So why do we still irritate and provoke the people who care for us? Let this prove to be a revelation to those who are still enclosed and trapped in their own bottomless pit of misery and agony.

Ah, how didatic this sounds.