I need a fucking job during the holidays, to keep me occupied. Wonder what happened to the supposed job attachment program from the school. Guess it went bust and fucked up again. Anyways, in order to live life the high roller way, or at least trying to, I seriously need more money. To buy the friggin ipod, earphones, A TOUCHPHOOOONE. Damn, every look of the orgasmic ipod makes me want it even more badly.

However, the problem is, my mother doesn't want me to work. I am not sure what is the fucking problem, but she will always use that kind of tone that loan sharks usually use to persuade. And it pisses me off everytime.

I think she should be proud that I am earning my own keep. Instead of pure leeching money from my parents.

And you know what? I hate to book air tickets for ANYONE. NO FUCKING MONEY GIVEN TO ME. NOT EVEN AN INVITATION. NOTHING AT ALL. I HAVE NEVER EVEN BOARD AN AIRPLANE BEFORE AND THEY EXPECT ME TO ENDURE THAT KIND OF KILLING ENVIOUS FEELING AND BOOK THE FUCKING TICKETS FOR THEM.

There is school tomorrow. Going school is actually a waste of money and time. I will spend 90cents commuting back and forth. While I am in school, I will listen to people who are trying to convert me into a PRC citizen and instill more 'correct' values into me(correct me if I am wrong). It is not those talk that I am sick of, its the ones which they brag how good they are in their own language. Pfft, and the mindless, vacuous insulting of 3-7. Then I have to eat my own lunch. It would be good if I'm at home. At most, if I'm lazy, I can open a new pack of instant noodles.

Damn, damn, damn. Chinese O levels are approaching. I am getting the jitters too. Honestly. If I were to screw up, then I will be a laughing stock of the fucking witch. No way I will let myself slump to such low points. I will not subject myself to the sneers from those .____.

I have a friend in Australia. He started to drive at around 13. He dropped out and started to work as a mechanic. He is 18 this year, and he has TWO CARS ALREADY.TWO!!! Damn it. And he is getting a third car soon. The coolest thing is, he can drift! That is so fucking awesome. If only I can do that. I wonder if I am able to own a car first.

Holidays. Then school. Then prelims. Then O's. So fast.

I just bought Capricorn today. And after listening to it, I prefer track4, Hua Hai, the most. The simple lyrics make the song so beautiful. Sadly, the songs I like usually don't get a MV :( An example, Dandelion's Promise in On The Run album. I really hope Hua Hai gets a MV.

花海
静止了所有的花开
遥远了清晰的爱
天弥漫爱却更喜欢
那时候我不懂这叫爱
你喜欢站在那窗台
你好久都没再来
彩色的实际让人很空白
是你流的泪晕开
不要你离开距离隔不开
思念变成海在窗外进不来
原谅说太快爱成了阻碍
手中的风筝放太快回不来
不要你离开回忆花不开
请你等重来我在等待重来
天空仍灿烂她爱着大海
情歌被打败爱已不存在

YAY!

History paper marking is rigged.
I cannot believe that all my links for my essay question, resulting in a 9/13marks essay, which seriously made me unhappy about it. After all, I managed to study the correct question, but I only managed a 9 ?! That's pathetic to me ):
And all my purpose for the inference/reliability questions were wrong! Could someone tell me, how vague can "war is unavoidable." be? I am so confused -.- How different is "potray a good image of him" from "glorify him". Maybe I can't tell the difference, I would be happy that you would tell me :D You should have heard what yc said about his answer too lol. "The intended outcome is..." and the marker actually wrote "Where is the intended outcome ?" lol.

As expected, physics handed me my first F9.

Forgeting about the already past end-of-years, ignoring the impending O-levels for a while, I think we should go Mount Faber! Maybe for a picnic or something. Sounds good to me. Definitely better than staying at home. Definitely better than playing computer games. I am astonished by what I said. After I have not touch the computer for three straight days. Its saddening to say that I have grown distant from my computer.

SORRY!

"You will have the horror of your life."

Pfft, so it is supposed to be the most horrible horror that has ever happened in my life? I doubt so. Failing physics is not really the end of the world. At least I don't view it in that light. I've seen more horrible things that have ever happened then failing physics. If September 11 is not horrible enough, please tell me what is horror. I had that horror feeling in timid me when I watched a horror movie. But not failing physics. Yes, push the blame on the students. Yes, we didn't study hard or whatever. How about reflections? Or you can always embrace the top scorers, and while you're at it, why don't you ask him to live with you? So that you are able to drown him with tombs of more physics and chemistry and biology. Hell, make him your adopted son, so that you can brag about it to everyone.

I met two bitches today, and it made the day worse than ever.

Life is seriously bad right now. Currently in a dilemma ugh...

I only heard rants today, going on and on about the same thing again and again. And I finally understand why some people just don't understand others' sorry plight. Because they don't think in others' shoes. If I had the chance to switch roles, I would have quit and lead a countryside life somewhere far far away. At least I don't come out and make a fool out of myself. And I finally understand why there are jokers who have had enough and decided to lash out.

On the positive side, I have homework. Thus, I can't think of any nonsense. I shall have Coldplay to accompany me, while trying to decipher how FIFA works, while doing homework.

Geog went pretty okay. Except for the delta part, which skipped out of my mind.

English was just...English.
Physics was...yet another overkill.
And at least I managed to finish social studies.
And I did narratives for English and HCL essays after countless times of writing boring expository or argumentative. After I realized that I am becoming a robot. I felt better after that.
I am basically trying my luck for this exams. I chose to study specific topics, despite warnings from teachers. Gamble and experiment, good luck to me.

But not for sciences, not for mathematics. Ugh, I just spent three hours to do one revision paper, which spells bad news. I think some of my hair turned white or just dropped after scratching my head to find answers.

Hopefully, amount of hard work put in equates to the end product. But we know that this isn't true all the time, don't we?