graduation day, where people were happily taking photos with 10000friends they have in junior college.
ultimately, i still regret the two years that i have spent in junior college. it wasn't the best time i had. or rather i didn't make it so.
i met many people but made few friends, and by friends i define them as people that i am comfortable to be with
i was presented with many opportunities but barely took some
i knew i should have done things differently, and if i really could turn back time, i would have done things differently.
i realised the many facets of life,
the many different kinds of people that until now, i still struggle to accept their idiosyncrasies and whoever they are. it opened my eyes to such a broad spectrum that i cant find words to describe it properly.
i have become cynical, sceptical of people's intentions...
it is like i wasted my 2 years; while other people had the drive to work their socks off for something, i barely tried. and it pains me to say that i have made such a grave mistake of not even trying hard. i would have known myself better if i did.
sometimes i wonder if it is my problem or others. i try to blame myself so that i could change myself. but sometimes it doesnt work.
mr chan shared with me:
if JC is going to shape my future character, i would really hate myself.
i remember i told myself to enter jc with an open mind, and adopt a complete different attitude. mere platitudes. i'm just too familiar with this bullshit... in the end i'm just filled with regret and remorse and theres nothing that i could do about it.
hopelessly,
i still wish for a change, for the better.
i do not want to remain like this, but i would welcome a change of environment
this sounds critical, but multiple conversations with weidong have at least ingrained something in me.
i was whistling 'good life' by one republic,
what an irony...
what a pity...
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