Ugh, almost done with Geography alas.
I made the worst decision by taking Geography. Too much memory work for a lazy guy like me =/

But is my studying effective?
Am I ready?

Everything is so fucked up, if you ask me.

Goodbye halcyon days, talk about the old days, where everything seemed so fine and pretty, where you only see the bright and lovely side; Now, everything is stained, with jealousy, greed, favoritism. Not to mention, the fuckers who think they are fucking good, the clowns who think they are funny, the stars which are not bright at all.

We used to share the same sky. Used to. Not anymore, not anymore in the future. Let's draw a thick line to separate my world from yours, my ideals from yours, my way from yours. A thin fine line would be pointless, as we are better off without each other. What I actually get to see, is a product of under-the-table trickery, swapped cards and the conspiracy. I am left out of it, fortunately.

What has happened to make such a great change? I wouldn't want to know. Trying to find out alone, is enough to form a migraine in the back of my skull.

Last but not least, good luck in your future endeavors.

I just realised that there are things or issues that I do not need to know of, do not need to be informed, and eventually do not need to care.

It is so predictable sometimes when you know something isn't right and it is going the wrong way. But you will still let it carry on. Well, I cbf seriously. I'm gonna disappear someday, so it doesn't matter much to me.

suicide?!

When I was trying to study for the upcoming chemistry test, I heard from kenneth that one of his primary school friend had committed suicide.

At first, I was shocked to hear it. Imagine a 15yearold schoolboy jumps down from his own block. The reason was apparently, for a boy-girl relationship. I find it rather hard to believe. The only real reason I can think of right now, is that his girlfriend wanted to break up and he can't take it thus he decided to jump down from his own block. He had to struggle for four hours before he was pronounced dead. And his parents were at home when he decided to take the painful way out. So this leads to the question of " Is it worth it? "

A fine 15 yearold teenager getting destroyed by love? And what is the real meaning of life and love? I have no qualms over getting in love at such a young age, but pre-relationship and post-relationship stuff gotta be sorted out, in the correct and positive way.

Ugh, it's getting depressing, confusing and cliche.

The past three days had been hectic, crazy and the kind of days that I would like to put in my recycle bin. With end of years closing in, I find it rather hard to not study. Even though there's a saying that goes, "Fortune favors the brave", I doubt that deciding to not study for such a major examinations can be considered brave. It is suicidal and equivalent of digging your own grave and wasting your precious youth and time to go to school during the holidays for boring yet helpful (?) remedial?

Physics is getting harder, so is Chemistry. A Maths and E Maths have loads of stuff to cover, coming all the way from early secondary school life. Geography, History and Social Studies have truckloads of information to remember. O dear, if only I get to apply all these knowledge in my future use. Am I not going to specialize in a specific field? Do I need all these? I think so... After all, Physics and Maths can be applied almost everywhere, which is...pandemonium when both add up together and make things confusing.

But, I gotta work hard. Self motivation, perseverance, and hard work, should pay off in the end, hopefully. Because it sucks to the core when all the work you had out in goes down the drain , and you are handed a report card with loads of Bs and Cs or failures, hardly a sight of the coveted distinctions.

Don't get cross, get even.

owned Chinese
Wait, I'll take that back. If getting an A1 for it counts, then whatever.

Whoops, look at the date. Thursday, and I haven't finish anything yet =/ Time flies, way too fast. Term 4 is definitely the most crucial part of the whole school year. After the dreaded end-of-years, comes many unit activities too. So, I'm still pretty fazed by the fact that the coming weeks will be hectic and...

In efforts to make my life more productive, and instead of cooping myself in a room to finish my holiday homework, I decided to once again, pick up graphics. And once I get myself a laptop, which I am saving up for, I will get photoshop and really dive into graphics. And maybe, say goodbye to all the noobs I pwned :p. Wait that is not supposed to be in the script.

Anyways, I saw my primary school classmate when I went out with my family. For a moment there, I hesitated to wave and say hello. That weird sense of awkwardness struck me. Imagine you waved and said hello, but your intended target ignores you or doesn't acknowledge your intentions. That sucks. In the end, I looked away and walked past, keeping quiet. Come to think of it, I think my actions were anti-social. I hate crowded areas. I hate trying to start a conversation. I hate being outside, I would rather stay at home all the time.