Tuesday, July 27, 2010

August won't seem so bad after all - sodagreen's album coming out by the end of August and Linkin Park's new single will be released on 2nd August!

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We once shared a memory together. It wasn't particularly sweet nor romantic but it signified that we had spent an afternoon of ours with each other. Just the simplest of actions yet it has already been imprinted at the back of my mind since then. And I thought by sharing something in common, it could probably bring us closer, bring our relationship to the next level.

I can still remember that fateful day. Your smile and your actions looked resplendent against the glorious sunset. We had a picnic and spent the whole day counting the number of birds which flew past us as we laid on the soft grass.

But strangely, one year after we broke up, I could barely picture your face again.

Friday, July 23, 2010

Inception was just so awesome.

Monday, July 19, 2010

Your brainwaves slow down involuntarily, your head gets groggy, your vision is blurred, you can't hear a thing.

The seat you're sitting at feels so comfortable all of a sudden. The environment reminds you of your perfect sleeping environment: air-conditioned, comfortable and you're just downright exhausted. Just closing your eyes for a moment wouldn't hurt, it couldn't possibly be counted as disrespect to the speaker.

As time wears on, you try to fight against your defying eyelids, to prevent them from shutting you off from the lecture. You attempt to jolt your brain into functioning mode by engaging in a futile attempt to concentrate. You helplessly take in deep breathes with the naive belief that the extra oxygen provided to your brain will prevent you from committing a sin.

But everything is just too boring.

Friday, July 16, 2010

deja vu

I hate that feeling.

Thursday, July 08, 2010

This is a reminder to remind me that I am required to write something on this page today.

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Light. It is supposed to bring hope right? Like what they always say, something along the line of "there's light at the end of the tunnel". Yet, light symbolizes something so abstract that I am unable to grasp. I don't think it is supposed to be solid and concrete, but I don't think it should be lingering around.

Light reveals everything it shines on. I'm begging it to not reveal the truth to me. I may be living in denial, but it suits me. I detest the truth. Just like cockroaches which lurk in the dark, I run away from the light. I do not need to know what is right or wrong, I do not want to know what the others think about me and I do not give a flying fuck about the rest anymore.

However, lately, I've been thinking. Of the good times and bad times. Of the unpredictable future and remorseful past. Of the uncertainties and suspicions. Of the people who have touched my life and the people who left an indelible stain of scourge in my impression. Of the fuckers, haters and doubters. And I've found the problem and the answer to the problem. The cold hard reality just knocked me out as revelation came.

I'm clutching my head so hard with my trembling hands as if it is a time bomb ticking away the few pointless seconds left. The light shines on my face as the truth dawned upon me.

The problem is me.

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Pretty crappy heh? Crap of the crappiest crap.
DAMN IT.

Tuesday, July 06, 2010

Oh my it has been such a long time since I have been here.

Block tests have just recently ended, and I do not think I will achieve anything fantastic this time round.
I am not trained to produce stellar results under school exam conditions (yougotta be kidding me right?)
So anyway. just dropping by for a moment. I swear I will make a proper visit if my computer does not fuck up.

I pray for my computer.