Wednesday, December 26, 2012

next year

I don't know where I
Am going to rest my head tonight.
So I won't promise that I'll speak
To you today,
But if I ever find
Another place, a better time
For that moment,
I was never what I am.

Take to me to where you are,
What you've become,
And what you will do
When I am gone.
I won't forget,
I won't forget.


Maybe someday,
You'll be somewhere
Talking to me
As if you knew me,
Saying, I'll be home for next year, darling.
I'll be home for next year.

Maybe someday,
You'll be somewhere
Talking to me
As if you knew me,
Saying, I'll be home for next year, darling.
I'll be home for next year.
And maybe sometime,
In a long time,
You'll remember
What I had said there.
I said, I'll be home for next year, darling,
I'll be home for next year.
***
I really wish what has unfolded wouldn't have happened. I feel so gutted and no matter how hard I try, I still can't believe it. I really wish I could go back time and reverse whatever damage I've done. 

I don't know if this is the best resolution for both of us, but I can only hope. Sometimes I have a strong urge to collapse and cry my heart out, but you're not coming back. 

I don't want to move on without you, I can't move on without you. The past two years have been amazing, I can't imagine going into a new year without you. 

I miss you so much.
I wish you could come back.
I wish I didn't commit all those foolish mistakes.