next year

I don't know where I
Am going to rest my head tonight.
So I won't promise that I'll speak
To you today,
But if I ever find
Another place, a better time
For that moment,
I was never what I am.

Take to me to where you are,
What you've become,
And what you will do
When I am gone.
I won't forget,
I won't forget.


Maybe someday,
You'll be somewhere
Talking to me
As if you knew me,
Saying, I'll be home for next year, darling.
I'll be home for next year.

Maybe someday,
You'll be somewhere
Talking to me
As if you knew me,
Saying, I'll be home for next year, darling.
I'll be home for next year.
And maybe sometime,
In a long time,
You'll remember
What I had said there.
I said, I'll be home for next year, darling,
I'll be home for next year.

***

I really wish what has unfolded wouldn't have happened. I feel so gutted and no matter how hard I try, I still can't believe it. I really wish I could go back time and reverse whatever damage I've done. 

I don't know if this is the best resolution for both of us, but I can only hope. Sometimes I have a strong urge to collapse and cry my heart out, but you're not coming back. 

I don't want to move on without you, I can't move on without you. The past two years have been amazing, I can't imagine going into a new year without you. 

I miss you so much.

I wish you could come back.
I wish I didn't commit all those foolish mistakes.

vultures

難道我是個拾荒者嗎。。。？

 
 

don't fear.

I've always been obsessed with happy songs that have morbid lyrics. Lyrically, this song is one of the darkest I've ever written. It's about being obsessed with someone to the point where you're hurting yourself. A lot of it is written almost like a suicide note meant to be found by the one you love. It's completely crazy and extreme, but it's also comforting to say out loud the things you’re thinking sometimes.

-Vic Fuentes

emo season #1

sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh.

No matter how much comfort food I try to stuff myself with, I can't fight this feeling anymore ~~






Amazing songs from the past :(

facepalm moments make me want to choke myself

Random conversation between a doctor and an attached observer/job shadower in a hospital lift that I chanced upon.

'So, what JC are you from?'
'JC X.'
'Oh, where is it...?'
'Erm.. Somewhere in YYY.'
'Oh... then your secondary school...?'
' ZZZ secondary school.'
'I see....'
And an awkward moment in the lift ensued.

I could see the size of the observer shrinking at the corner of my eye as he stared at his feet, wondering what to say to diffuse this situation. 

***
Really?