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Sometimes, it is a blessing to be individualistic, opinionated, obstinate and stubborn, especially when you are defending something precious, say....your own pride.

It can be liken to not defending your garden when people start to step on it mindlessly. You have spent years of effort to cultivate the beautiful vibrant flowers, to not only decorate your house but also to show your eye for detail. But you tolerate the d-bags, giving in to them and let them to not only destroy your blood, sweat and tears but strip away your own pride.



Water has a boiling point. So does human. Everything has a limit. When you push it too far, you go over the top and you risk incurring the wrath. Tolerating others' incessant whining, bitching attitude is apparently, fine with me. I had actually tried to be sociable and friendly and easy to approach, etc bullshit. However, when your fucking teammate is a d-bag and treats you as transparent, it is hard to not call him a d-bag. He sure loves to play one-two with his friend. Okay, I'll try to take it in. I'll give in to you this time.

For every major incident, there will bound to be a spark, which would cause all hell to break loose. Tommy pushed his friend and just walked off, albeit a late sorry followed afterwards. But seriously, how sincere is that?
So you have two options: 1. stfu and get on with life, since Tommy treats you better or you will be spending the rest of your life with him or you ignore his wrongdoings or Tommy is simply, my friend. How ironic, the friend who got pushed is not your friend? 2. you retaliate.

Then again, there are many types of people. One of them, would be the most special case after observing for 16 years. With one group of friends, he is the loudest, the most outgoing, practically the leader wannabe. With another group of friends, he would struggle to fit in. The king reduced to a backboneless organism. How apt. Submitting to the ....(hmm I can't find a clean word for this.)

Then again, there would be another type of people. The indecisive bunch: always getting pushed around. They keep everything to themselves, expecting people to read their complicated minds and try to understand them. They always get caught in between everything. They have no real opinions to any issue, be it whether to their friend's comment or whatsoever. When you finally hit the nail on the spot, they flare up and expect people to once again, try to understand them. They always try to front a cheerful and bubbly visage.

Then again, you have the smart alecks. The effusive type of person who thinks he knows everything about human nature. Then he goes on to comment everything about it. How he saw through the person, how he knows the exact way it works etc. You may have noticed, his views could very possibly be biased and narrow-minded. He might use derogatory terms; he is trying hard to express himself clearly, to make his thoughts known. He might say inane remarks when he is angry.

So, when these three types of people collide, you will get nothing but a constantly retarding friendship.



If I am narrow-minded, then maybe you are blind.
If I am biased, then maybe you are just too gullible and soft.
If I am critical, then maybe you are such a wonderful and nice guy/girl.
To be honest, I am quite irritated and sick of feeling jealous. This foolish tug-of-war of friends; so now, I am really going to fucking rest, since we all have graduated and are all sensible enough to make decisions for ourselves. The last iota of persistence has, finally been extinguished.

At the end of the day, no one needs to apologise to anyone at all.
/rant

In hindsight, it feels amazing to have graduated, so that we will not cross paths anymore.