Monday, March 31, 2008

joy marred by disappointment.

Saturday was a joyous day, but not really.

Campcraft competition results are finally announced. Team 2 managed to qualify for the finals, which is quite of an achievement. First time gonna take part in a national competition.

Nevertheless, we reached our initial target of top10 nationals. Even though, happy, we must not let complacency take over our head. We shall train even more harder, to try our best in the finals. It was something worthy of celebration but we'll do it later after the finals :)

Haven't been updating because I'm swamped with work everyday, although I do not do some. With the finals approaching, its gonna be a hectic schedule. NPAP also reaching the actual parade, training is going full swing with a full saturday at the secluded HTA.

Actually, I feel disappointed because of something. Maybe you don't know and you won't know. Only two people know about this. I feel so empty all of a sudden. I knew it was a mistake right from the moment I did what I shouldn't do. Regrets fill my heart. Everything went wrong, and I did not expected it at first. Maybe I was rash, stupid and reckless. But its too late already.

Maybe I should clarify things, but I doubt it would work anymore. Its too late. A bunch of unsaid words, keeping it with me forever.

I just can't move on with the life I am supposed to live.

Monday, March 24, 2008

Haven't been blogging for the past week because of the busy school life and schedule. Monday is a free day for mapling, guitar on Tuesday, training on Wednesday, Physics on Thursday, training on Friday and possibly Saturday is either occupied by CCA or CIP too.

Nothing much to say, except that being a reserve totally suck. Not that I'm complaining or what, but sitting around watching a rehearsal and basically doing nothing is practically just a waste of time. So now, going training is seriously just slacking around and awaiting furthur instructions and wasting my life.

So much for being a reserve. So much for the relentless crap that they like to say, about how important reserves are, about how crucial they are, merely a backup. I know its my own fault landing myself in the reserves, and I blame no one. I'm just frustrated as I'm doing nothing at all. Just like walking on the same spot, writing the same word over and over again. N.O.T.H.I.N.G.

Fine, move on with life. School is just fucking sian as I'm trying to make sense what I'm taught. And a physics test on the second week of the term? Goodbye Physics Hello failure.

Friday, March 14, 2008

All of a sudden, I feel like throwing my books and pursue a career in IT. I mean I just can't wait until the moment where I'm through with all tests and tests and get on with my life by making the choice of my career and the course that I'm taking for uni/poly.

I like IT because its sounds and looks interesting. I mean even if the codes or whatever are complicated, as long as the fire of passion burns inside you, you won't even think its troublesome. In comparison, I hate physics -.- as much as I hate mas selamat for messing up the lifes of everyday people by escaping out from the detention center.

Guess its about time I decided on what my future occupation is.

Monday, March 10, 2008

I am blogging in such a late hour is because of one thing. I think Arsenal can forget about their Premier League title. After drawing against Birmingham and Aston Villa, they did the same thing again. The final score this morning Arsenal 0 Wigan 0. Its weird how other teams managed to win their games while Arsenal wasn't able to, again, for the third consecutive time. If this persists, drawing their games instead of winning them, they are handing Man U the title. I can tell Manchester United is going to top the table after their tie against Derby. Arsenal's tie against Wigan isn't easy and it isn't hard too. Wigan is in mid table and I think Arsenal's jinx of unable to pick up points against unfancied opposition is coming back to haunt them. I was so pissed when I heard the whistle being blew. So full of anger and angst.
I'm an Arsenal fan myself and I'm veryvery disappointed. Maybe they can try again next season. Damnit.
Middlesbrough
Chelsea
Liverpool
Man Utd
Reading
Derby
Everton
Sunderland
Things don't look good do they?

Monday, March 03, 2008

Don't mind it if the imeem thing looks untidy. Couldn't figure out a way to make it smaller except to modify the skin which I was lazy to do so. Happy birthday Jackson, WeiKit and SUNGYURI! :P

妳听得到
有谁能比我知道
你的温柔像羽毛
秘密躺在我怀抱
只有你能听得到
还有没有人知道
你的微笑像拥抱
多想藏着你的好
只有我看得到
站在屋顶只对风说
不想被左右
本来讨厌下雨的天空
直到听见有人说爱我
坐在电影院的二楼
看人群走过
怎么那一天的我们
都默默的微笑很久
我想我是太过依赖
在挂电话的刚才
坚持学单纯的小孩
静静看守这份爱
知道不能太依赖
怕你会把我宠坏
你的香味一直徘徊
我舍不得离开