I'll reward myself with sodagreen's latest album when I am done with prelim 3. Regardless of how terrible I perform for it.



如果有梦，请温柔的推翻这个世界~

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I see people are working hard. I see people are putting in effort. I see people fretting over their futures, the uncertainties. It is commendable. While I am rotting away.

So I ask myself. Do(Will) I have a goal in life?
I used to have goals. Under the illusions that being good in science would augment a comfortable life, I dreamt of being a chemical engineer, a doctor, a chemist or a dentist. Every parent would, ideally, want their child to succeed in life. To be a doctor or lawyer, to have a monthly salary that pays off nicely, to provide a good life to the family, himself. That is the perfect ideal situation.

However, I realised I do not have any sustainable interest in the field of science. Enough to ensure I pass my exams to ensure my promotion to the next grade, just sufficient to enable myself to obtain a graduation certificate (yes, the finish line is just ahead).
While my brother can easily shoot out profound words like some lactobasiasdasdasa, I couldn't be bothered with what/how you actually pronounce it. I doubt I will have much association with academic science in the near future.

So I asked my mother. Is it okay for me to do whatever course I want when I go to university?
Her response was reassuring. She thinks I will choose whatever that is the better for myself in the future. But I'll still do my better.
Not everyone can possibly give his best for every attempt right?