Monday, December 31, 2007

annual camp

oh great i just typd a long essay but somehow the bloddy draft didn't save. okay just to summarise.
I find that the camp was seriously disappointing. I was very disappointed with my groupmates as what they were showing was that they really don't care and what they do were seriously throwing the face of their squadleaders. Simple things like don't fidget and move when fall in, sense of urgency, listening to instructions, respecting your seniors and sirs, don't argue bargain complain demand - people just can't seem to understand. Yes, I may not be the best ic there is out there, but at least I know that I'm not. I don't walk around with swagger and stuff. Eat some humble pie for a change. And reply the one asking you a question or something, cause no reply is no respect and no respect is your hands touch the ground the next moment you know.
Do everything with enthusiasism and shout like there's no tomorrow. My group was seriously lacking enthusiasism and I can't figure out how to motivate them. Because talking nicely to them won't work and shouting at them won't work because they just don't listen to you. I find it rather frustrating when people don't listen to you and now I know how it feels. Back to the same point, they don't listen is no respect and no respect is your hands touching the ground the next moment you know.
I don't understand why people can't stay in twos all the time and they are so lazy that they always drag their feet when they walk. The sound doens't sound nice to me. And walking in twos doesn't seem so hard to me. Its about time you guys wake up and know that the fairytale ended and welcome back to the real world.
So what if you speak fluet english. so what if you can do 200pushups. so what if you're the supposedly best in the squad. so what if you talk a lot. In this camp, everybody is equal so don't expect special treatment. You don't walk, you don't slack. Do everything with sense of urgency, a basic thing yet people are lacking. Because if you don't do it with sense of urgency, it shows what kind of people you are -- someone who just thrown the face of your mentor.
Just a rant, I've unloaded more stuff among my squadmates after a sharing session. I may have commited these mistakes before and I'm sure I did. But at least I changed, for the better.

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

he was sitting there, in a corner.
she was sitting the other side of the table.
she's so
cute
pretty
beautiful
kind
demure
everything nice
he's not so good-looking
not so talented
not like her.
he kept quiet
never took the initiative
never say the secret sentence hidden in his heart
blown the chance
regrets
but all too late
he only wants to
stare at her
hope that frame would freeze
let him look at her, secretly
its already enough
a dream that he don't wanna wake up from.

Thursday, December 13, 2007

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The holidays
gonna end soon damn it.
Watched Golden Compass, played badminton and wasn't there to witness arsenal's defeat to middlesbrough. Still find it unbelievable that they lost to them. sigh.
Golden Compass is a nice show imo. The story is slow no doubt, but since its part one of a trilogy, just like Lord of The Rings part one, there's gotta be explaination and stuff to make you ready for part two. The ice bears are veryvery cool, nice, realistic looking and the fight scene was awesome. Too bad the final battle at the end was a bit short and not that exciting as the ice bears'. Trying to find the book that the movie was adapted from, but I searched for it and realised its available in Jurong. great. Maybe I should just buy it hmmm.
Inroduced a korean drama to sq and he also introduced me one. Witch Yoo Hee. Wooo, what a good way to spend your holidays. Instead of doing the same routine stuff, like wakeup-go training-lunch-watch tv-play-sleep day by day, I'm exposed to more things now, through dramas. Maybe I'll learn something nice from the show.
Campcraft comp training getting more and more interesting. Breakthroughs, challenging yourself, bettering your own timing set by yourself. Even though its an own time own target kind of training, we still strive to break our previous timing. And if we really bettered or maintain the timing, the feeling is, definitely good and encouraging.
A bunch of stuff I gotta finish:
Clean up my study room
Tidy up my sec1 and sec2 books and papers. damnit i hate papers
Finish chinese homework. ihopeitsnot10%ofca
And I think the last thing should be finish watching witch yoo hee by the holidays because when school starts it's gonna be damn busy for everyone I suppose.
Oh ya, I haven't buy all my books yet.
I hope Arsenal would prevail against Chelsea. imo.

Sunday, December 02, 2007

dinner.

Monday's free for me. Therefore, I went back to malaysia to spend some time with my family. Its better than burning my weekends doing nothing. The holidays are too packed and I get little chance to see my parents and siblings. sigh. Anyways, we spent our whole day in kluang. We ate some very delicious beef noodles. The beef doesn't taste bad at all and the soup is very nice. That was lunch. For dinner, we ate seafood. woots. Delicious crab and fish. I craved for these kind of food for such a long time. haha. I'm afraid that next year will be a fucking busy year man. Then I can't go back to johor during the weekends next years anymore. Man, I'm gonna miss them. I can't bear to leave them. Sometimes I regret studying in singapore.
Let's forget about that first. I don't wanna think about that anymore. I'll just live my own life my own way. If I feel like going I'll just pon whatever things that's standing in my way. Speaking of food, I went to eat korean food woah. To any those korean lovers, if you're interested , do tell me. I'll tell you the address hahaa. Its somewhere in chinatown. Very nice food, very nice staff too. Friendly people.
That's all for today. I'm gonna chiong my bandit now.