Thursday, June 28, 2012

vultures


難道我是個拾荒者嗎。。。?

 
 

Thursday, June 21, 2012

don't fear.



I've always been obsessed with happy songs that have morbid lyrics. Lyrically, this song is one of the darkest I've ever written. It's about being obsessed with someone to the point where you're hurting yourself. A lot of it is written almost like a suicide note meant to be found by the one you love. It's completely crazy and extreme, but it's also comforting to say out loud the things you’re thinking sometimes.

-Vic Fuentes

Tuesday, June 05, 2012

emo season #1

sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh.

No matter how much comfort food I try to stuff myself with, I can't fight this feeling anymore ~~






Amazing songs from the past :(

Monday, June 04, 2012

facepalm moments make me want to choke myself

Random conversation between a doctor and an attached observer/job shadower in a hospital lift that I chanced upon.

'So, what JC are you from?'
'JC X.'
'Oh, where is it...?'
'Erm.. Somewhere in YYY.'
'Oh... then your secondary school...?'
' ZZZ secondary school.'
'I see....'
And an awkward moment in the lift ensued.

I could see the size of the observer shrinking at the corner of my eye as he stared at his feet, wondering what to say to diffuse this situation. 

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Really?

Friday, June 01, 2012

Archon Toilet

“Our battered suitcases were piled on the sidewalk again; we had longer ways to go. But no matter, the road is life.” - Jack Kerouac.

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And so, another chapter is about to begin when I haven't closed the previous one. I am apprehensive and anxious.
I do not know what is going to happen come August, but I am only hoping for the best.

I have unfortunately lost the motivation to blog already. Ideas sprung up now and then, but by the time I log into blogger I lost steam and blanked out. Numerous times. It is strange...

A conversation recently with a retired man made me realised a few things about myself.
I know I am not cut it for the business/corporate world, no matter how hard I try. Yeah, that's where the money is. But I am not one to socialise and make friends. Hence, the difficulty to build a wide and strong network. Oh dear. I wonder what happened in my developmental process, I have this tendency to be alone. I am wildly averse to meeting new people. It is a mindset that I have to adjust. Still trying to, am going to, have to do, must do.

Strangely, I like who I am right now (I'm a geek!), I like where I'm at, even though I am facing the crossroads of life. Whatever decision I make is going to shape me, my thinking, my career, my future. It scares me. I wonder whether allowing 18/19 year olds to decide their career at such an age is a correct decision. Yet, we all have to face it. I am not an exception.

I have taken my ISAT. Submitted my applications. Awaiting for a confirmation for Personal Quality Assessment and maybe an interview. ETA October? I don't know. I only know this is the last time I am going to try. I can't wait to close this particular side-story.

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OSL RO16.
I vaguely remember it was about the time I usually knock off from work. Fuck, I am not going to make it... Luckily there is a twitchtv app on my iOS device hehee . So I tapped out of Outram Park Station, instantly sat on the stairs and whipped out my iPhone. OMG, LEFT WITH 20% BATT, LETS HOPE 3G IS FAST ENOUGH. Jangbi vs Flash. I had recently found out about the beauty and art called SC:BW. I was staring at my phone for a good 20 minutes, listening to korean commentators screaming away passionately while I didn't understand a single syllable they spoke. Those goons were sieging at the bunker again... the game went smoothly into mid-game. Sadly a mistake by Flash ended the game. My heart was rooting for Flash :(