happythankyoumoreplease

be thankful
for the past
for the present
for the possibility of a future

ugly or
beautiful
painful or
joyful

they are still worth remembering

each different memory
holds a different significance
has a different story behind it
and a different ending
and a different lesson to learn

indelible
hard to erase
seared into the back of the mind
conceal it
live with it
and soldier on

mistakes strewn all over
landmines not to be stepped on
there's no next time

on the other side of the veil lies
uncertainty
insecurity

indecisiveness will get you nowhere
immortality doesn't mean not dying
one chance one choice one opportunity

grab it.
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school is an utter bore, i miss something(hint: c-) very badly, backlog is piling up, stress is mounting, motivation ran out of steam, anxiety is trickling down, the candle is burning on both ends, fatigue is setting in, faith is wavering, i need a massage, networks are getting complicated, people are being difficult, relationships are distancing, the noise in my head is getting louder, the clock is still ticking, time is slowly dripping away, my wrist is broken, i need sleep i need rest, i was never in control, life is just a mess.

i need someone to