wait for it...

i'm sure that there will be a third time!
just wait for it...

and i'm sure that there will be many more times too!

ahhhh
ahhhhh

you're just a call away from listening to me breaking down.

i don't care whether i'll see you again, but
it was nice knowing you.
being dramatic and making a big hoohah over it,
is just fake, like the movies.
make a quiet entrance, end it off wth a poof like Bilbo,
but please don't leave me guessing where you're off to.
maybe it was a mistake in the first place, but
i enjoyed repeating the same mistake over and over again.
sorry, i just hate to get my hopes high, and
watch it sink into the water and rest on the seabed in record timing.
sorry, this world is getting crowded and noisy,
i doubt my existence will have any significance, and
i need to fuck off for awhile.
if you don't find me alive one day,
just say you did.

***
to end off on a happier note,
sodagreen concert was just brilliantly awesome.
pure enjoyment for your ears with the funny talking parts beatifully arranged pieces and the ever-so-awesome voice of qingfeng. two encores were not enough though :)
to all those who missed it, you should try to catch their next show!
hope the wait wouldn't be too long.

xx

P is for....;

essentially all painkillers are paracetamol.
if only painkillers could numb the pain from countless heartbreaks.
and mend the heart back to its original shape.
and prepare it for yet another impending heartbreak.
one by one, indellible stains of those tainted memories are left behind.
and they can't be erased but they are hidden from sight, but kept in the most inner chambers of the heart.
such a stupendous creation, congratulations my fairest lady.

***
the truth is now acceptable?
blind faith and false hopes. just when you start to have some hope in humanity, someone just comes along and splashes you with a bucket of cold water.
come on, motherfucker! shine some light or light yourself ablaze. save me from this black and hopeless feeling.

***
i hate to ask people whether they are okay or not,
half hearted 'yeah im alright' replies
are not particularly encouraging
those demons will still find you and
eat you up
thank you for trying to not burden me with your problems
hate me today, hate me tomorrow
i care that's why i asked
seriously, what can i do when you are not okay?!

***
ridiculous when you let your mind wander! look at all these crap.

take this with a double pinch of salt;

If you don't care then don't fight for it.





I'm so sick of 'don't look back' because I'm a part of the
disgusting sickly rot that's causing the whole plague
obviously languishing in self pity and self mutilation
not the time for serendipity to appear magically out of nowhere
tell me i'm not okay tell me i'm having the wrong mindset
can you spare me from this misery
anything else other than apologies are insufficient
rip out my heart my lungs my eyes my ears
everybody's right when you don't even know what's happening.

***
Relax, look alive. The sun isn't gonna eat you up today.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XtWlsFSdNdI&feature=mfu_in_order&list=UL
how awesome is that! everyone singing together.

**
I love fridays!

i cant wait i cant wait i cant wait.