on the verge of insanity

fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

awoke

Cold day.
Peered through the side window and I saw nothing but white snow.
I was on a train, to somewhere, somewhere I didn't know. It seemed like Germany.
The train stopped. I alighted, and proceeded to explore the new area which was totally stranger to me.

Suddenly, I realised I had no baggage no luggage no personal belongings. And why am I alone in this faraway unknown land?


***

mellow

I wish we could open our eyes
To see in all directions at the same time
Oh, what a beautiful view
If you were never aware of what was around you

And it is true what you say
That I live like a hermit in my own head
But when the sun shines again
I'll pull the curtains and blinds to let the light in

***
strangely brings me to tears.
what a weird song that sounds so beautiful, further accentuated by lyrics that make me even more confused, and...melancholic
i'm back at familiar territory every time my complys are broke.
it is difficult to see the forests through the trees.
things are harder than they sound.
if only i could realise the beauty of life by changing perspectives.
slowly slowly
there's no time for that anymore
.
.
.
.
and it stops.

magical

sleepy

己所不欲，勿施于人